Scars…

They are marks left on our body after we have hurt ourselves.  They remain there for the rest of our existence on this earth….why? 

Why must we always bear a reminder of a moment we, most times, would like to forget.  A moment of pain that we had to endure probably not by our own choosing.  Why is it that our skin does not fully heal to the same degree that it once was…

My belief is that we are made from these perfect molds to live a life of imperfection.  We are scarred as we go about our daily lives in a way that leaves it visually apparent.  If this visual was not there then how would we remember and more so how would we learn from this memory.  To see a mark left from something that once filled your life with pain is a reminder of that pain, a reminder to be more careful next time.  It reminds us that we are not perfect and we can get hurt and we will get hurt… eventually.  Eventually we will also learn and not repeat the same mistake.  Hopefully.  Although I tend to hold on to my stubbornness and rinse and repeat rather than rinse and move on.

The heart is of the same notion.  The difference here is you cannot see these scars.  No, these scars hit you hard with a sharp stabbing pain and slowly lessen over time.  Eventually they will only have an aching effect when a thought or even a smell crosses you or you see something or hear something that becomes a catalyst.  These scars are left undoubtedly to remind us of what we had.  They remind us that there was happiness once there underneath it all.  If you are lucky and very few are, you may get by with only a couple but some of us are not so lucky and they seem to dig deep and become never-ending.  For some of us we give so much of ourselves that they break us in time.  The never-ending feeling of pain will always sit there right on top barring our hearts from any more potential hurt.  They become a road block for possible hurt and whats worse possible happiness.  We hold on so tightly to these scars and the pain that we lose sight of the future until eventually the future has become the present and the present has become the past.  Why?  What makes us different from those that can just wipe their hands clean and move on to the next like there was not a before.  Did we feel more or give more in these times that make the potential future out of sight and hard to find?  

And how about letting go…

We don’t ever know when it is ok to let go of these scars and let our heart begin to heal its self.  If we do so too soon we feel and look caullous…if we wait too long we look pathetic.  So where is that in between…that just right moment where nothing is too soon or too late.  How do we know how to find that moment?  I am not quite sure this is something we can ever know or even control.  This is where it becomes frustrating daily.  You want so bad to be able to heal and feel again but trying to get there with ever-present reminders is such a hard journey.  In this moment it becomes even seemingly impossible.  Hope begins to fade and you are left waiting for the release of emotional baggage you have been toting around.  You get stuck in this in-between trying to regain your ground and remember your strength that makes you who you are. 

So how do you know? 

When should you know? 

The only solution I can keep coming up with is to just hand it over and let time take it and play with it and mold it into what will be your future.  To feel every ounce of pain that comes with it because it is that which reassures us we are alive and giving out the love we were built for.  Our souls are meant to find another and with that sometimes you will encounter heartache but there is never one so strong that you can not bear it.  I am beginning to believe that each striking pain makes your soul more unique until eventually it is absolutely and undoubtedly perfect with zero flaws for that one you can call your soul mate.  It just all becomes a waiting game of opportunities that you should always be open too.  The worst thing that can happen is you learn a little more about yourself and possibly gain a friend in the same instance. 

I challenge you to say yes this week to one opportunity that presents itself to you, embrace it and see where it takes you ♥

{For it was not into my ear you whispered but into my heart, it was not my lips you kissed…    but my soul.}

{love loudly.}