So I have this crazy mind blockage thing going on in my head.  I can’t quite figure out why I am so empty with my posts as of late but I have more drafts than I can count on my hands and feet.  Most are 3/4 of the way finished and then that’s where I stop.  I am not sure if I have just developed this fear lately of people seeing ‘me’ or I really am truly at a loss for words and endings. 

occasionally I like to go back through my favorite posts to date and re-read them.  Sometimes when I read them I am impressed these words even came from me.  Some are so intense |to me| and raw in feeling that I can’t believe I actually allowed people to read for just a moment into my soul.  From time to time I will run into someone and they will mention my blog and that they enjoy reading the posts and it is a little embarrassing to hear yet humbling in the same moment.  I guess when writing at my computer I just don’t connect the dots on once I hit publish it goes out for the whole world to view.  Maybe that is what has made me able to continue writing my feelings and thoughts.  I am not sure. 

One thing I am sure of though is it makes my heart explode and my soul foster this almost unattainable feeling of joy when I hear how my words have helped someone else.  It astonishes me knowing I can do that simply be writing what I am feeling.  It is almost surreal to think that what I have experienced, the pain I have gone through, the valuable lessons I have learned and am still learning can be helpful.  There are days when I wonder why I put myself out there.  Sometimes I think about deleting this blog all together.  But then I receive comments that are so amazing and uplifting.  So for this post I thought I would share some of my favorite posts and also some of my favorite comments. 

So here they are…

Favorite Posts not in any particular order:

1. New Days. New Adventures New Excitement.

2. People Come & Go..But Experiences Remain..

3. Character

4. Sunday Bloody Sunday

5. The Looking Glass

6. Scars

7. Dear Self,

Though I love all my posts..I think these seven are some of the hardest ones for me personally.  They brought up more emotions in me and were a struggle to get through.  Though they may have been the easiest to write as strange as that sounds.  With each one there was not a pause or a second review before posting.  It all came out and with the feelings they evoked in me I just knew they were exactly what I wanted to say. 

Here are just a few comments that touched me…

Very I inspiring. It’s nice to hear what someone else has gone through and so often people hold back on what they really want to say.

Xoxo
Jess

Brandy,
I just found your blog and really enjoy your perspective. There’s no ‘doubt’ I’ll check back in from time to time. Now I’m off to the store for some sweet peas!
M

 I always read your blogs! I hope that’s ok. I know we don’t know each other very well but, you’re blogs always hit so close to home!! You express things really beautifully. I’m not a crier either. I’m definitely a thinker……and I show my emotions through my thoughts & words much like you do! I feel like you pick my brain! Keep up the inspiring words

This post really blessed me..my brother Stephen (I think you know him from the gym) shared this with me. Life choices have resulted in some painful experiences for me, and I am still in the throes of a difficult divorce. I know the Lord loves me and will provide grace to walk through these circumstances, but it is often a challenge to remember that my experiences only shape me, they don’t DEFINE me.

Thanks for the reminder and the encouragement! God bless you.
–Anna

As strange as it may sound, I come to your blog when I’m feeling down. It always lifts my spirits somehow. I really think you have some great writing here Brandy. I hope writing about these things helps you as much as it helps the people who read what you write. Anyway, keep the posts coming. I need a lot because I seem to feel down quite often these damn days. Have a good un.

Brian

Thank you to everyone who reads my posts and I love hearing your responses to my words.  I love being able to share my experiences and lessons I am picking up along the way.  You all are amazing ♥

{I am grateful for the normal of today.}

{love loudly.}