New Years.

It is a time to change your life.  It is a time to start over.  This is the moment you relinquish all that is bad from your life.  This one day takes your half empty cup and makes it half full.  A fresh self, past erased, beginning & future anew.  Nothing matters because it all starts now, this one day, January 1st.  Every year begins monumental and with hopes, dreams and tasks in place.  There is a plan and a driving force.  The momentum of this one day in 365 days of each year is insurmountable.

Typically I fall in and get trapped into this New Years Resolution bandwagon that seems to leave the station of lost hopes and tired souls of the year 20andwhatever it happens to be at the moment.  Though this year has yet to trap me into making promises to myself I know I cant, wont, and don’t care nor dare to keep after the New Years hype wears off in 10-20 days in.

{Ok, well I did make one but I knew that was far-fetched and pretty much impossible…I burnt my tongue on coffee {Res. being to patiently wait for things to cool} with in 5 days of the New Year…or possibly even that first morning of 2012!!  I am impatient, there is no surprise there!!}

That being said I am happy with myself for NOT falling victim to the Resolutions of the New Year.  Now this is not just my boycott to the New Years tradition of pledging for a better you in the New Year.  This is my realizing that I am happy.  I am happy with myself and the flaws that make me unique.  I am aware that it is more beneficial to me and those around me to do and not say.  The moments that I have encountered entering into this year have been nothing short of ridiculously amazing.  Which leads me to believe I am doing just fine without making any resolutions at all.  Whats the point of setting yourself up for disappointment when you realized the goals you set were most likely more than you could chew.  I would love to know the number of resolutions that go untouched or have been failed each year.  That would be interesting to me.

It is amazing how free your soul can feel once you let go and let things just happen.  It tends to surprise you just by its simple complexity in nature.

My life. My daughter. My past relationships. My current relationship. My old & new friends.  My forgotten moments.  The moments that make me smile. My lessons I learn daily.  My walk with God that strengthens every day.  All of these are exactly where I want them to be and are on track to take me where I need to go.  I would not change one thing on how they started, happened, or ended.  They brought me here to this moment that leaves me completely and utterly in awe and humbled ….and happy.  This place I find myself is just beautiful♥ and I would never wish it to be any different!

{Sometimes you need patience in order to find true happiness.  It won’t come fast and it won’t come easy, but it will be worth it.}

{loveloudly.}